1. Beginnings Suck Panda Balls
Writing has always been an easier way for me to communicate my feelings/emotions. I didn’t know why until about 4 years ago (after I received my autism diagnosis). I usually put off starting anything new, for lots of reasons. But mostly, starting something new sucks big panda balls! Mostly because it means learning new information, which can be hard when your brain work differently. But lately I’m learning that being uncomfortable & starting something new can be tolerable as long as I have my healthy copping mechanisms near by. So I’m doing it! I started a Substack. Why? Mostly to write about autism & disability; then there’s the added plus of keeping my listeners updated on my new music releases!
2. Community As A Trigger Word
I realized recently that as much as I love the autism “community” -the word itself can be triggering. Why? Well, the truth is half of my life i’ve never felt quite like I belong. And that word gets tangled up in all sorts of weird ways. Communities can be messy & confusing when you are on the autism spectrum. But I’m learning to tolerate the word when it comes to autism simply because it’s the one place where I finally DO feel like I belong. I definitely hope to connect with like-minded people who are willing to expand their perception & knowledge of autism & disability. Because there are so many misleading stereotypes! I’m also looking forward to connecting with more neurodivergent creatives! Yippee!!
3. Images Are Nice
As much as I LOVE words & sounds, I am a VERY visual thinker. I thought this image was a nice way to start out. Why? I oftentimes feel more comfortable when it’s dark. It reminds me of the end of the day, when I feel accomplished & ready for sleep. It’s a much better feeling than the start of the day, which can often times feel very overwhelming. I also think of myself as a “finisher”. Being I prefer the end of a task instead of the beginning. Most of the time because, yeah ~beginning suck big panda balls.